Category

Day 03

Day 3: Or when I found out I have a lot to work on

By | Day 03 | No Comments

First, I’m so grateful for Doug and his team for aggregating what Curtis made available. What a blessing to our church and to my family!

Our church signed up about 80 people this last Sunday to this challenge, and I hope that each one of them are just as impacted as I am by pursuing this new paradigm.

That being said…

The Wesley inventory hit me hard.

It doesn’t take much to make me a little emotional (ask my wife), but I really am thinking about how often I disappoint and how often I fall short. Many of the items were ones that I’m asking for prayer for my life, but the most important was…

Do you share your faith?

No, no I sure don’t do it. And that makes me the biggest hypocrite of all.  Why wouldn’t I share about the goodness of God? Why wouldn’t I share His redeeming message?

Our family started this week by praying for a stranger we met at Wendy’s. We talked with him about environmentalism (his topic) and quickly said a prayer whilst our girls (4, 2) screamed (it was getting late). But, we encouraged him and shared that we too believe that Jesus is the Christ.

I need this day to remind me that I have things to work on. When I arrive to work, I’m printing off the inventory. It’s going by my computer. I need to see it to remember to be a disciple worth replicating.

His word, all of it, is enough

By | Day 03 | One Comment

“You are the light of the world…” There are days I sure don’t feel like that. Yet here is God declaring exactly what I don’t feel over the purpose of my life. Early in my walk with Jesus I read those words with a sense of accomplishment; “now the world gets to see how the Lord works through me.” Perspective is a powerful thing and now, when I’m not feeling so ‘light-of-the world’, I feel the weight I have placed on that statement. I, too often, do not finish the thought and see the real meaning. A lightbulb consists of several parts most of which have no purpose in themselves. Nothing the parts do can fulfill their own purpose. It’s not until power is applied that the purpose of any of them becomes apparent. Even then, the light is turned on to complete the work of another. “In the same way, let your light shine before others, so that they may see your good works and give glory to your Father who is in heaven.” Father, give me your power to fulfill your purposes.

Reality Check: Am I Worth Multiplying?

By | Day 03 | 4 Comments
The first word that came to mind after reading today’s assignment: Ouch.

This was painful for me today, to be honest. As much as I long to be like Jesus, I fail miserably EVERY DAY. The stress that comes with misbehaving children and being hated by people in my life that I just cannot avoid really gets to me sometimes. Oh, who am I kidding? It gets to me MOST days, despite my daily prayers that I walk in the Spirit and not the flesh; ask the Lord to help me be meek, mild, loving, compassionate; full of joy, grace, and mercy every day so that it oozes and radiates from me to everyone with whom I come in contact.

Today’s assignment included reading Matthew Ch. 5-7 (The Beatitudes) and writing down four verses that spoke to me. They all hit home, but these four are the areas that God and I were dealing with today:

“Blessed are the meek, for they shall inherit the earth.” Matthew 5:5 NKJV

“Blessed are the merciful, for they shall obtain mercy.” Matthew 5:7 NKJV

“But I say to you, love your enemies, bless those who curse you, do good to those who hate you, and pray for those who spitefully use you and persecute you.” Matthew 5:44 NKJV

“For if you love those who love you, what reward have you? Do not even the tax collector do the same?” Matthew 5:46 NKJV

Today’s assignment also included a self-examination quiz by John Wesley. Even though this reality check was painful, it pointed to areas I already knew were struggles in my life, and today I cried out to the Lord in anguish over these heart matters. This led to anointing the entryways of our home and the bedrooms with oil, kicking the enemy out, and loosing Jesus’ love in our home and in our family members. Something changed in our home by the evening. Our home was full of love and laughter as it never has since we became a “blended” family! We had a pastor friend over for dinner, and he said he could feel Jesus as he walked in the door! HALLELUJAH!!!

While our friend was visiting, we were able to discuss this calling we have on our lives and started making plans to move forward. THANK YOU, JESUS!!!

Lord, please keep molding me and making me into Your likeness, a disciple worth multiplying. I’m Yours, and I want to be used by You and for You. Trusting You every step of the way!

Our daughter being silly, attempting to give one of our sons a "swirly."

Our daughter being silly, attempting to give one of our sons a “swirly.”

Discipleship Through the Eyes of Youth: Day 3

By | Day 03 | One Comment

The Wesley’s Self-Examination Quiz created a healthy moment of reflection this evening. Through honestly answering the questions, I was challenged to really look at how I live my life day in and day out. One of the questions that really challenged me was “Am I self-conscious, self-pitying, or self-justifying?” For the first time tonight I saw self consciousness in an exposed light. As I read the word self-conscious I truly understood what it meant.

I tend to be pretty self conscious because it’s in my nature to be a people pleasure. I strive to keep everyone happy. But I’ve never really looked at this as a bad thing. I’ve always thought, “I’m self-critical and self-conscious because I want to do things right and please others,” but when you get to the root of things self-consciousness has nothing to do with other people at all.

I just realized tonight that self consciousness in its purest form is selfishness. As I read the question I thought about the word “conscious” and what it meant. I also looked up the dictionary definition…

Conscious – aware of one’s own existence, sensations, thoughts, surroundings, etc. (Dictionary.com)

To be self-conscious is to be self-aware, self-focused. Self-consciousness leads to my thoughts being so focused on myself and how I am being perceived that I think of myself wayyyyy more than I spend time thinking about others. It’s selfish to be so worried about what I look like, act like, or am perceived like because I’m thinking of myself before I’m thinking of others.

I found this question so uncomfortable because if it had simply asked “Are you selfish?” I would have thought “No I’m good at sharing and stuff” not giving it a second thought. But instead the question asks, “Are you self-conscious, self-pitying, or self-justifying?” And I can’t blow by it so easily. I’ve realized to be any of these three things is to be selfish.

If I am going to be a disciple worth multiplying I must get rid of this selfishness that has been hiding in my heart as self-consciousness. And I don’t think the the answer to getting rid of my self-consciousness is to gain self-confidence, or confidence in myself, but to gain Christ-confidence, or confidence in Christ.

My prayer is that as I switch my focus from being self-conscious to Christ-confident I will become a selfless disciple who is ready to be multiplied.

 

 

– The verse that I meditated on today was Matt 5:16 –

“In the same way let your light shine before others, so that they may see your good works and give glory to your Father who is in heaven.”

 

Day 3: Am I worth Reproducing?

By | Day 03 | 3 Comments

I loved the questions from Wesley today.  It is not your typical “church” questions but questions that have to do with the heart.  “Did the bible live in me?”  What a great question!  It’s not asking “if I crossed of the check of reading the bible” but did I live out what learned? I love out of the ordinary questions that cause me not to think religiously, but out of the heart.  Most questions we usually get in studies are more Pharisaical.  Today was super busy for me as it is spring season and I manage a Garden Center.  I printed it off and it sat on my desk until the end of the day and I just quick glanced at it.  At night I gave a more thorough glance and wish I would have done that to start my day.
It was also really challenging to think about if I was worth reproducing.  I love how Paul said to follow his example and do as I do.  Abraham is also a guy who really followed after God and was willing to trust him to the point of killing his own son promised by God.  Also God said to Abraham “The reason I am blessing you is to bless others.”  This challenge I learned in a Perspectives Course that rocked me and made me rethink a lot of my beliefs.   Am I worth reproducing?  I want to constantly be asking those around me who will speak the truth in love to me on this.  I need others around me to challenge me.  A few years back I read somewhere that you are the average of the 5 people you hang out with today 5 years from now.  I looked back and saw who I was with 5 years ago and who I have become today.  Those men believed in me and discipled me and were worth reproducing.  4 of those 5 have moved away in the last 3 years.  This made me realize  I needed to deliberately surround myself with people who were going to challenge me to be someone worth reproducing.

Discipleship When Life Is Busy: Day 3

By | Day 03 | One Comment

Day 3: Becoming a Disciple Worth Multiplying.  Today was crazy.  Our youngest foster baby woke up with a fever, so my husband stayed home from work to be with him.  When I picked up the 1 year old from daycare they said “He has been really fussy all afternoon and is tugging on that left ear.”  Needless to say, our evening looked a lot like two screaming babies and two adults about to pull their hair out.  I did finally get a little bit of time once we put our oldest foster son down to bed to look at the quiz by Wesley and to take some time to read through Matthew and do some soul searching prayer time with God.

I thought that the quiz from Wesley was really interesting and gave a different look at my walk with God.  I think sometimes we just think that if we don’t steal or cheat or curse that we are doing alright in our walk with Christ, but reading something like this quiz can really make you look at the “smaller” things that we tend to overlook.  Questions like, “Am I a slave to dress, friends, work, or habits?” “Am I self-conscious, self-pitying, or self-justifying?” or “How do I spend my spare time?” really make you look at your life from a different perspective.  The Bible says that ALL have sinned and fallen short of the glory of God.  That means that we ALL have places that we need to grow in our walk with God.  The verses from Matthew that I decided to write out and meditate on tonight were:

(5:6) Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they will be filled. (7:7-8) Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.  For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened.

Becoming a Disciple Worth Multiplying

By | Day 03, Day 10 | No Comments

You might remember that, on Day 3, we talked about becoming a disciple worth multiplying. The idea is simple, actually: If we’re going to make a copy of something, we need to find the best original possible.

Recently, I was told that Ying Kai started each of his days with a 3-hour prayer time. Humbling. Sobering. And inspiring. When we discussed this idea previously, we referred you to a video about Abraham by Curtis Segeant, a Trainer in multiplication concepts. It’s worth watching the video again, below.

Learning to Fast

By | Day 03, Day 21, Day 22 | No Comments

I’m writing as a guest on the site, anonymously, because I need to admit… it has been a long time since I have allowed myself to feel such physical hunger for such a sustained time — and I’m only doing a partial fast (two meals per day) and how that also is a pretty true statement for my spiritual hunger as well. I content myself too often with passing 15-seconds-of-thought prayers, tiny bite-sized crumbs of Pinterest-type scripture, and distracted Sunday morning “worship.” I need to remember how to be hungry. How to feel it and let it move me. Not just move me to reach for a spoon-fed understanding of someone else’s revelation, but move me to seek out dinner with the Master Chef. I have a million excuses. No, I really only have one: I let any excuse be bigger than my drive to being more like Him.

So here is to being hungry! To being truly grateful for the food before me and my family. To pushing away the distraction of seeking comfort in favor of seeking His Voice. Today I’m praying that you, the reader, will find real mealtime with the One Who Loves You most.

Signed,

Learning to Fast

Deepening your Walk as a Disciple

By | Day 03 | No Comments

In September, I was given the privilege to attend a training in Uganda. I, along with about 35 other workers mostly from countries in Africa, spent a little over a week learning and putting into practice some great tools for making disciples. The case studies of some of the disciple-making movements going on in our world today were almost hard to believe, they were so beautiful. Millions of people in places with many obstacles coming to know Jesus. After some of the sessions I would find myself motivated and ready to run, and after others I would question my faith and ability to stand to the task. I was blown away at the testimonies of those in attendance. Some of my fellow trainees were from countries like Sudan and Niger. Their heart to build the Kingdom was so passionate, even with the promise of severe persecution.

On two of the days, we were given a challenge to go out into the community and share our testimonies and use some of the tools we were learning. One of the groups that went out were able to find two open men that were actually baptized in the pool of the place we were staying! Amazing.

The final day was dedicated to vision casting and planning how to put in place some of the tools we learned. As my mind went from Uganda back to Bosnia, God stirred in my heart and gave me a glimpse of what He wants for the people in this place. He deeply desires the people of this land to know His love. I was reminded that prayer is the first and most effective tool we have to seeing a movement of God. We have since recommitted to extraordinary prayer here on the field. If you would like to join us in that, here is just one tool that can help you on that journey. We hope you will join us in bringing about the power of the Kingdom in this place!

Letting the Holy Spirit have free roam

By | Day 03 | One Comment

If we are honest, there are parts of our lives that we like to keep private. Private from our co-workers, our families, and yes, even God. Knowing that it is impossible to hide something from God doesn’t seem to stop me from attempting it at times.

When Adam and Eve sinned, God called for them and asked “Where are you?” God knew where they were, but He wanted them to know as well. He wanted them to know that they were lost.

When going through the Wesley questions, it is almost as if I can hear God saying, “Jon, where are you? Where is your heart? Where is your passion? Do you know?”

Allowing the Holy Spirit to permeate and bring light to all aspects of our lives can be hard and uncomfortable. It can make us aware of areas where we have been playing “hide and go seek” with God. It can show us areas where we need to grow in our relationship with God and in our discipleship walk. It is hard…but it is worth it.

I have found these questions are good ones to come back to periodically. Spiritual growth is not a one time thing, and these questions are a tool that I can use to check on my spiritual growth. I hope they can be an encouragement to you as well.